Please help me 😞 depressed with the world
I don’t have anyone else to talk to about this much. My husband tries to keep me calm and change the subject when I talk about anything covid now. He can see it is depressing me.
My Mother is religious and thinks this is the end of times foretold in the Bible. Tells me it’ll be over with soon. Also not helpful.
I have been following Chris since the start of the pandemic. Also reading reddit groups like wuhanflu and conspiracy (of course!). I bought n95s and stocked up on food. I wanted to be prepared for my family. I have 2 little kids.
I have always enjoyed reading about conspiracies. They fascinate me whether I believe them or not. I have always appreciated the way some people think and make connections. It’s entertaining at the least.
Reading into reddit I have read about the elite pedophiles and child sacraficers. The Lucifer worshipping famous. I have read and watched documentaries on it all and been brought to tears at the evil in the world. Depressing! This was before covid. I was depressed about the world long before covid.
Now I see the greed and corruption taking place which looks like pure insanity. All roads seem to lead to the depopulation theory. I haven’t found any other explanation for it. I’m Hoping that I am just gullible and my conspiracy interested mind is being led to believe the worse outcome possible. I truly hope that’s what it is.
I over think everything. I have anxiety. I have ADHD. I hyper focus on this topic. I think about it waking up and going sleep. I am terrified. I wish I never brought children into this horrible world.
I used to have dreams and goals. I wanted to open a gallery in town selling my art. Being unvacinated I can’t even go into the local pub and have a drink. They are all provax. I have no friends. All my family live in another country. It’s just my husband and our 2 kids. He has been coerced into one jab so far.
I just think I have nothing else left to live for. The future looks grim. My kids will probably be forced into a jab. It’ll shorten their life or give them cancer. We’ll be sent to FEMA camps and killed like the Jews. I have seen videos of all those creepy plastic coffins. What are they for? What are these concentration camp looking places for that are also popping up?
Im depressed and winter is just beginning. I’m trying to stay positive for my kids but it’s hard. I used to work out daily but think what’s the point now? I just want to drink alcohol and await the end.
I ask for help because I just need some hope that there is a different future. It doesn’t look promising though does it? What is there worth living for? How can I change my mindset? How can I find joy knowing it is going to get worse?
Thank you for any help and for reading.
TLDR- I’m depressed with the world. What can I do to be positive about life?
It can be overwhelming and that might just be the goal of the powers that be. The dispirited are much easier to control.
ADD, depression, anxiety on top of it all is a real booger. I find that I do best when I have found a plan and am working it, it gives me purpose and a reason to get out of bed every morning. Be it building resilience or building community, there just is not much time in the day to let my fears get me down. I am lucky to live in a beautiful place and I am lucky to be able to relax into the rhythm of the other critters that make a living here, if only for a little while to ease my mind. The natural world will continue long after my worries have died with me. What might be left besides Cher, Kieth Richards and cockroaches? Who is to say?
Wendel says it best,
The Peace of Wild Things
By Wendell Berry
When despair for the world grows in me
and I wake in the night at the least sound
in fear of what my life and my children’s lives may be,
I go and lie down where the wood drake
rests in his beauty on the water, and the great heron feeds.
I come into the peace of wild things
who do not tax their lives with forethought
of grief. I come into the presence of still water.
And I feel above me the day-blind stars
waiting with their light. For a time
I rest in the grace of the world, and am free.
Thank you rooster rancher. That is a lovely poem. I do live close to nature. I’ll go for a nice walk today and have a think. I had things I was working on but now I feel they are pointless if the future is as grim as I imagine.
I understand. I think many of us do. Especially tough if you’ve got young kids and the future looks grim. That said, they are depending on you to do your best. Perhaps it would help to consider what sort of proactive measures you could take if necessary to protect them from any vax mandates such as homeschooling.
As well, probably a good idea to be really picky where you get your information from. Given that anyone can and does post online, it would be a good idea to be sure that you trust the source implicitly; there have been many crazy conspiracy theories posted online. Just cause someone says something doesn’t mean it’s so. I’ve seen stuff posted here even on the PP comments when someone rushes to repost something they just saw etc but it was just nonsense. Easy to make yourself crazy about it.
It’s pretty scary times for sure. Many of us have experienced the loss of friends and/or relatives due to our differing viewpoints. It’s easy to feel alone.
I guess if I were to make a suggestion I’d say to limit what and who you are reading online, limit how much time you spend online, find community wherever you can and be kind to yourself. And remember that all of this time isn’t just a pause in our lives; it IS our lives. For the kids it’s a big chunk of their childhood. Do what you can to make it a good one.
As a quick suggestion, I’d urge you to go into nature and NOT think. Just observe nature doing it’s thing!
Heavy topic for sure, but a lot more common then you realize. You say you hyper focus on tasks, you can use that to your advantage. First off, you are not alone. TPTB will do everything to make it appear that you are. You aren’t. Seek out the good in this world. People making a difference, people standing up to insanity, groups that are forming.
You said you have kids, whenever life kicks me down I always try to do something with my kids. I can’t control tomorrow but I can make today good for them.
Try an indoor garden, takes time and focus and in return gives you food, oxygen and serenity.
Don’t be afraid to seek professional help.
We are going to see dark days ahead but I truly, in my soul, believe we will come out on the other side to a new and brighter future.
Hang in there, the world needs people like you.
For me, 50 lengths (3750ft) in the pool daily. Seems to keep the black dog at bay
It is really hard to stay positive especially with everything going on and as we head into winter.
I would start with ramping up the vitamin D and B12. A deficiency in those can cause the symptoms of depression and/or anxiety. Iron can also, but that one is a bit more tricky since you can have too much iron. (Any desire to chew on ice?)
DaveFairtex has some great stuff on flush niacin. I won’t even begin to try to explain that.
If you follow the religious teachings remember you are beautifully and wonderfully created for this time. You have a purpose and what you are doing and learning through these hardships is preparing you for something. God has a plan! Some days I have to just lay it all at God feet and focus at the task in front of me.
You are not alone,
I understand how swallowing the red pill can seem overwhelming. Sudden shocks to ones reality can kick in an intense set of emotional responses that I think is very well described by the Kubler Ross model.
Each of us has to grapple with the process as best we can and while in the process of dealing with it life continues on. I would offer that your children are very lucky to have you as a parent. You offer them the possibility of seeing the world according to a different narrative.
I have always turned to the natural environment for some relief whether it be by having a garden or taking a nature hike or a bike ride, etc. to help me focus on something real. I’m not sure of your circumstances but you are certainly not alone in your concerns.
I hope things can change for the better for you. You have friends here at PP.
The thing that helps me is finding that stubborn, rebellious fighter buried deep and feeding it to make it stronger. I am in almost an identical state that you describe, but this trick is what keeps me going. For me, it’s raising my own food, improving self defenses, really anything to help prepare for this fight makes me feel more confident, in control, and positive about the future.